Or at least its been teh end for quite a while now. For the time being my fanfiction career is over. Its nowhere near as fun as it used to be now that I've become so critical of my work and when looking at my older work it tends to be an embarrassment for me. My DA page is very rarely visited anymore (I scared most of my watchers off anyway) and what I have written very rarely gets read. So there is two reasons why I'm giving up fanfiction writing, because its no longer fun aaaannnnddd because I want to attempt something that I've been mulling over for weeks now, mostly because it seems impossible for me to do on my own.

I really, really, really want to publish a book. Since the day I first picked up a book and actually got into it I've always wanted to see a cover with my name on it. I've become so critical of what I write now that there is some small chance I may be able to write a passable book and a book is probably the only dream I have that is even slightly within reach with my capabilities.

So I've decided I'm devoting whatever writing I will do to this book over fanfics. I've got all the rest of my life to write the fanfics I never finished and hopefully when I return I'll actually be a halfway decent writer.

I obviously haven't been very vocal about my desire to write a book, mostly because the few times I've brought it up in real life I've been laughed at and I pretty much assume the people on the internet would find it stupid too but at the end of the day I'm gonna need a LOT of help that my family sure as hell isn't going to give, I'm gonna need whatever advice and help I can get from you guys.

If I can do just this one thing then I will be content with my shitty excuse for an existence knowing I didn't completely fail at at least one thing. So yeah....

To be exact I want to write a childrens fantasy novel, maybe I'll talk about what I want it to be about more some other time.

Unfortunately, unlike fanfics, books don't get written in a day nor does the revision, or the revision's revision. Once I start my job next week I plan to write a certain amount of words every day but I haven't decided the exact amount.

TIME FOR SLEEP!!!!!